Not What I Want

I dont want exactly what Im looking for. I'm afraid of having exactly what I want. When you have what you want the only thing left to do is lose it. I spend more time worrying about what I do wrong than what I do right. More time praying not to lose what I have. Waiting for the day I make that fatal mistake and everything slips away. Because I don't deserve what I want

Simple Love

Smiles like summer but with eyes of December. You rescue me with a glance and your name brings happiness.

Taken

I hope when you fall asleep I infect your dreams. With every dream, I hope you grow more and more love sick. I hope you imagine me holding you tightly, feel the warmth of my breath against your neck, imagine my fingers running through your hair, the touch of my lips against yours, grasping your hips and taking away your resolve...Then I hope you wake up, distraught, lonely, sick, as though something has been taken from you, just like you've been taken from me.

Do You Live In Reality

Is reality where you are or where your mind is? I often find myself stuck in a tangible world chasing intangible thoughts.

By The Way You Love

I know your name
                             By the way you love me
I know your eyes
                             By the way they burn
I know your skin
                             By the way it feels
I know your lips
                             By the way they taste
But all this is for nothing because i do not know your heart.

I wish i knew your heart
                                             But I only know it bleeds
I wish i knew your soul
                                             But I only see it pains
I wish i knew your dreams
                                             But i only see their not of me
And I wish i knew your faith
                                             But I only know its not in me
Still none of that matters because I know your name
                                                                               By the way you love

Invaluable

I've never seen anything so beautiful yet so uncertain of its worth. With eyes forever pointed down you fear an unkind word or a disapproving glance. But in so doing you deprive the world and you deprive me. I've seen the power in your eyes and the truth behind your stare. Deep and lucid your eyes seem to search soul to discern the worthy. Oh if only you would gaze upon yourself, then the immense certainty of your worth would be clear. Raise your eyes and see what I see, see what you are, see who I would give anything for...

Join the Unwanted

You never will be someone's first choice of love. Forever exiled to the numb grip of solitude. The sooner you forget warmth and touch the less you will feel the void. Let emptiness consume your soul because here there is no loneliness, there is no pain, only acceptance of fate. Fighting to be loved is what brings pain. So come join the unwanted, join me...