Blatant Dreams

These thoughts are hardly a dream and cost more than a life. The notion of being with you seems an impossibility that’s worth the risk, or perhaps the price? With blatant disregard for odds I pursue something I know I will never have, because accepting this would mean the surrendering of my dreams and my passion in living.

Simple Rule

So perfect in every important way. So flawless in unimagined ways. You come to me as a dream of a possible reality to be. I don't know what I have done to deserve this. Why would an angel want to be beside me and touch the face of wrong? And all she asks in return for her love is I follow the rules.

Another Day Without You

I can't spend another day without you. I feel myself breaking at the soul. Forgetting who I am, what I am. I stare at your pictures saying I love you until I fall asleep, wishing to never wake up but I always do. I try to remember why I'm here, why I deserve this for walking away. Or did you leave? I can't even remember anymore. I only know the reality of the pain and anguish I find myself in. Why can't I be with you now? Whats keeping you from my arms? I don't want answers though, I just want things to change so I can live again. So I can take my first breath and stop bleeding instead. How do you manage my love? We belong together, we were made for one another. Never have I ever felt so strong as when we are together. I know you must feel this distance. Does it not pain you to? Please come back to me. Lay your head beside mine and touch my face to see the truth behind my words. Let me heal as I run fingers through your hair and drink from your lips. And when I am drunk off you and my mind slips away in peace then you may kill me and leave. I would rather die at your hands then die slowly away from them.

I love you

Teen Spirit

These times I can’t even put into words. The feeling of being young and alive tonight. To have that burning fire in our hearts. Reckless thoughts racing through our minds. Tasting the best moments of our lives expecting them to never end.

Time And Tides

Shes always patient but counting time, I wondering how much left is mine. Gently singing songs of tides, she wakes me from what clouds my mind. How many days will I let wash away, before I see the pain that stays. I must set foot on solid shore, she need not wait anymore.

Repetition Makes Perfect

Repetition repetition!
That's how I've had to learn everything in life. Apparently this is true even with my mistakes. Why can't I learn from past mistakes? Why can't I do what I know is right?... What I "think" I know is right...What I "want" to know is right. Apparently I need to figure out whats really important to me in life, and not just who's important to me....What will my life be about?

Words Are Meant To Be Heard

Write until your lungs burn and your heart collapses. Write until eyes bleed and your fingers cry. Write to give life to words that end lives. Words that pour out emotion to explain your lack there of. Words that only bring emptiness in lonely thought. Words that even still, you would give anything to speak, because words are meant to be heard. Unspoken a word spoils on the tongue. It rots in the mind and twists into something even more nefarious than the lie it started out as. So write your words and I will listen, I will be consumed.

Indecision

Die so I can die or breath so I can breath. Your indecision is the knife in my heart and my love is the poison.

Sparks

I refuse to write about my thoughts and feelings. Rather than give knowledge into my insight I write to ignite. That my words may burn in the kindle box of your mind that will set the world in flames

Write to kill

Speak Fire

Don’t believe their words. Don’t believe their egotistical propreganda trying to mislead the masses. Change? Whos change? Not your change. Their change, their money, their interests, their ideas infecting your mind to numb you to the fact their taking your life from under you. Espionage of the mind, they steal your dreams and then tell you what to desire. Speak! And let your words rain down like fire. Burning away their lies and exposing you… exposing the truth

Write to kill

Expectation Of Heart

Even though we're far apart I can still feel you smile. With every beat of my heart I'm reminded you possess it. Oh that time would pass swiftly so that I might hold you in my arms and feel whole again. A feeling that seems almost foreign to me now in my broken state. Never again will I allow my heart to be misplaced. Never again will I let you slip from my embrace. Untill then care for my heart and fill it with yours, so that I might continue to feel your smiles as I count the seconds until your return.

Evil Empire

Let your words catch fire and burn down their nefarious establishments of thought and reason. So that it may set the whole world ablaze with freedom. Speak bravely and see them burn to the ground.

Restless

Alone and restless at night. It forces you to ponder all the mistakes you've made that day. And then robs you of sleep to ensure you make more tomorrow. It conjures up images of You, but then refuses to allow the dreams to come. I drink these times in gladly though so I appreciate, so I don't foresake the restless nights alone...with You.

A Mess

I'm dangerous, spontaneous, haphazard, crazy, wreckless, a mess... and happy. Because I know you understand this, and love me anyways.

Love
       -Your Downfall-