Tuesday, October 27, 2009
You dont know what it feels like to tell someone you love them, and they wont say it back. You dont know what it feels like to look into the eyes of someone you knew, and feel like a stranger. What waking up alone feels like when you just held them in your dreams. To chastise ones self for everything I could have done different. I wish you knew what it feels like. What seeing someone you love in the arms of another feels like. But of course I could never wish that on you. Because through all the pain I remember what it feels like to be with you. And that feels more real than anything...
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Today i found a shirt that still smells like you. I haven't seen you in ages but the scent grips my senses and images of you flash through my mind. I don't know how long I stood there drinking you in but after I put the shirt back in my closest... I couldn't bring myself to wash it.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
I know you are the One. Even as your reading this you know you are the One. You can try to deny it, try to fight it, try to move on but its buried too deep. Beneath all your words, beneath all your thoughts, beneath all your emotions I haunt you. I bet you wish you never let me in, wish you could reason me away, wish you could justify my absence, but you cant. Being the One is all you could ever wish for and all you could ever fear...
Friday, October 9, 2009
You always tell me to smile and dont worry as if nothing ever happened. Well thats easy for you to say when your the one moving on. Maybe to you nothing did happen. Maybe I am nothing to you. But I will always be the brave one, because I live with the nothing everyday.
Its hard to describe what a broken heart feels like. Its hard to explain what a broken heart wants. Maybe its just one of those things, those things you have to experience. A broken heart makes it hard to breath. A broken heart makes it hard to sleep. A broken heart fills your stomach with pains. A broken heart reminds you your not ok. A broken heart makes you want to die, because a broken heart is dying. It just takes its time convincing you...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I swear I knew everything I wanted to say. I wrote it down in lists and rehearsed it over and over again in my mind. But here we are face to face and again my mind draws a blank. Its as if you reach inside my head erasing all my thoughts. So this time I'll just speak from my heart because it never lets me forget.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
I try not to love the world or the things in the world, for all these things are soon to pass. Still I find myself forever in love with you, as though caught in a battle with no lines. Maybe its because I see the light in you. A light shining as a lamp in this dark world. Maybe your not really part of this world but, my way out