Tuesday, December 29, 2009

In Your Eyes

Staring at myself in the mirror I look for what I see in your eyes. Love, happiness, hope, I can see my future in your eyes. But I don't see these things in my own eyes. Maybe thats why you left... because you didn't see them either

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Im so afraid to let go you. But I cant let go of something I never had

Thursday, December 24, 2009

So I decided to take some "me" time today. I grabbed a few things, tossed them in my backpack, and walked off into the woods aimlessly. It was nice getting away from everything... well except my thoughts. Even out there miles away from anyone I still find myself thinking about the same problems. Although out there at least its easier to focus on them one at a time. I don't know if I solved anything but just being able to think about them with a clear head was nice. Nature has a certain energy about it im convinced because I always feel recharged after. Its almost as if there's an interchange of positive and negative energy. I think im going to go for more hikes like this

Monday, December 21, 2009

Pain Fills Where Love Once Was

How could I ever replace you? How do I fill the void your love left behind? It seems as though im left with only pain. Like little grains of sand it slowly fills the space your love once was. Sometimes I wish it would bury me to...

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Forgive me the way i wont

No one understands how special she is
The way I do
No one understands how different she is
The way I do
No one sees her smile
The way I do
No one sees her cry
The way I do
No one loves her more
The way I do
No ones hurt her more
The way I have...
And now my heart bleeds because no one feels regret
The way I do

My air

You are what I breath. When you leave you might as well take the air with you...it will be useless to me

Monday, December 14, 2009

Your Slipping Away

Its already starting to feel like your slipping away. With each passing day it gets closer and I cant deny it any longer. It feels as though im being dragged towards it kicking and screaming. Maybe not knowing would have been better, ignorance is bliss right? It could have been quick and painless instead of agonizingly drawn out. But I would have hated you for that. It would have been time stolen from me. It would have been pain stolen from me. And it would have been you stolen from me. Regardless of how much something hurts I believe its better to let something go then to have it taken away. And at a time in my life when so many things have been taken from me I refuse to let you be one of them. So I'm saying goodbye instead

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Little Faces

There is something special about little kids. Everything to them and about them is transparent. Things are either yes or no, happy or sad, good or bad and their emotions are always genuine. To them I'm amazing, I can be a buddy, a hero, and a source of comfort all in the same day. But above all else we could do for them is the love they give us in return. Kids truly add purpose to life and serve as reminders to us of how we should all be.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Big Bang

When you leave I know what will happen. The sun will explode, earth will be vaporized, the solar system will be erased, the galaxy will come undone, the universe will be sucked into a black hole, and everything will be reduced into dark matter. So how's it feel to play god?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Little Reasons

To explain all the little reasons why i love you would be a daunting task. I know for every reason I would give there would be ten I had forgotten. But maybe that's just part of loving someone. Everyday Im with you Im reminded of these little reasons why I love you. And little reasons add up...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

No faith for man

We can have faith in so many things like country, government, science, and God. In things seen and in things unseen. So then why is it so hard to have faith in one another?

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Am I Your Mistake?

When you wake up in the morning
When you've had time to think
When you've gone away
I just don't want you to see me as another regret

Friday, December 4, 2009

See Not With The Eye

God doesn't see like man sees. God reads the heart. But if he reads mine I'll apologize for the mess, because only he can see my scars

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Hearts Lullaby

Im tired and I want to fall asleep. So I think about the sound as your heart beats. With my head pressed against your chest, your heart tells me I can rest. But when your gone how will I sleep. Worrying that your heart might miss a beat

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Never Lost

Dont feel lost. Your never lost until you choose to be. Instead be found in the truly meaningful things in life. But if all else fails I'll be there to find you